this is heavy

well well well...

hello 2011. i wonder what you will have in store for me this year. i was thinking about it the past few days and i dont remember where it came from but when people say "what do you envision your life to be in 5 years" people actually answer it with the expectaiotn that everything they say..will happen. 5 years is a really long time. you know how many things could happen in 5 years!?  i get a rush of excitement and mystery thinking about it though. whats going to happen with my life in 5,10, 20 years? gosh i hope the Lord does many crazy things. i actualyl have no doubt in my mind that as i amtyping this he is saying "jen you have no idea" hes going to shake me really hard. i pray that he prepares me heart for whatever happens..good..bad...tough..whatever. its kind of calming. i was wathcing the today show this mornign before going into work and this man was tlaking about his girlffriend that was abducted and killed. he was so non-emotional i even wondered if he cared at all or had something to do with it. then he started talking about Jesus and saying that he trusts she is with him and saying that at least it is over...that it wasnt the way they wanted it to be over but they found her and buried her properly and saying he cant wait ot see her when hes gone from the earth....and i was totally caught off gaurd. it made me think about my attitude and where my heart is. im learning and seeing that its ok if i am madly in love with keenan and that i have a passion for having a big family and a nice home...but Jesus gives me all those things...why dont i worship and think and day dream and obsess over him just as much..even more! i wish television never existed. that was random but its true. it fries your brain and helps you to be lazy.

moving on...

we are searching for a house!! yayy!! im so excited! we meet with the realtor this saturday to tlak about location and style. keenan keeps telling me not to get my hopes up and things like that and hes right..

BUT IM SO EXCITED!

i will be sure to definitely keep you updated on what happens with that..

MINISTRY:

well this is kind of sad...after this spring we wont be leading young life anymore. which is weird. and exciting at the same time. there are really alot of emotions involved with this decision but we have talked and thought and prayed and tlaked some more and its the right time. we will miss camp A TON and leader weekends even more! but we feel that the Lord has done and finished a work in us that he wanted to for this span of time...me at scott and keenan at ludlow and now its time to move on and grow some more. it was sad telling our leader team. we love the dorseys and tieke so much and it will hurt to not be with them as much. i am confident though that all 5 of us will stick together and still love one another when me and keenan leave cooper. who knows we might be neighbors with nick & steph...there are several houses for sale down the street from them lol. when we do leave we plan on attending and being more a part of grace fellowship church. i am very excited about this! keenan and me would like to be in a small group together and learn SO much! very nervous and excited.

thats alot to swallow but there ya have it. i hope everyone had an awesome new years and pray that God will show you himself through thick and thin this year. have fun!