where to go from here...

well hello stranger. or i guess im the one being the stranger. i havent been on here in almost a month. whew. time flies. the days are just blurbs lately. they are happening so fast. everything is happening so fast.

i hosted a bridal shower for my bff Sam. it went better than i thought it would lol. GREAT turn out. it was so cool to see all of the women who love samantha be there to celebrate with her. here are some pictures that were taken (thanks cory!)

a lot of weddings coming up. lylte wedding this saturday, cornett wedding june11 (this will be the first wedding ive been in- besides my own. im so excited!) and samanthas july 30 (im one of the matrons of honor which means speech...kinda nervous) AND a baby shower for jess this sunday i cant wait to see her & the "babes" (vince & baby meiman) lol.

going back to time. days have turned into a blur. everything is molding into one it seems, if that makes any sense. i was on facebook and came across some pictures of girls i discipled when i was leading at scott hs. and i miss those girls. i look at the pictures and think of them and their hearts. i think of myself and where i was at spiritually. there was so much sacrifice involved in loving these girls. i dont sacrifice much anymore. i feel like when i was hungry because they ate all my food, car running on empty constantly from picking them up and driving around, no sleep, no money, tears of joy and of hurt for them, i feel like that is when i knew Christ the most. maybe because during those tough times emotionally and physically exhausted thats when i was shown God strength and love he has for me. as im typing this im realizing how much i love those girls and that Christ loves them far far more than i ever could. and knowing that comforts me. because i am human. and as much as i long to call each and every one of them every day to talk and see how they are doing i cant. i could. but i cant. and it makes me feel better knowing that all i can do is pray for them. i cant do anything for anyone. but Jesus can.(yay!) still trying to find out where Jesus wants us to work next...this is a hard time, trying to find your "place". its not that there arent any great ministries, its that there are too many. where to go..im not sure yet.

remember when a few months ago when i said i was gonna start running. well i started and then stopped very quickly. and if you know me well you know i DO NOT run. since i stopped though i have been thinking about starting again. i was listening to klove radio this morning on my way to work and i guess you could say was affirmed by the spirit that i need to start running. 

Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.

1 Corinthians 6:19-20

i remember when i was at morehead state. i had quit cheerleading so i needed to keep in shape another way. my roomate and i would work out every day for like 2 hours and i remember feeling great! i was energized all the time. didnt get sick. i just physically felt good. now i have to crash on a chair or the floor the catch my breath and slow my heart rate from walking up the stairs at our house. you laugh but im not kidding. i hate it. i dont feel good. always tired. and of course there are always the lies that i believe about my body image (which that though is a case of my heart) and i want to be in shape by the time we want to have kids. i want to run a 5k which might be nothing for you but its a big deal for me. baby steps- im gonna do it. you watch me. im gonna feel great again. my body is the temple of the Holy Spirit. thats a big deal.

well its getting late. im not really tired right now because i took like a 3 hour nap when i got off work. but i really should read and pray. i havent done that in a long time.